these few days.. got c0oped at home.. haix s0o0o0o0o s0o0o0o0o missed those times in beijing where we wake up at around 7am and get to spend the whole day out until the sky has turned so dark.. although the time would only be 7pm... nothing better to do.. didnt felt like doing homework.. SH*T! hahaz.. ok la did a bit of maths actually.. been watching lots of tv and plaing lots of rct AGAIN.. haix haix haix..

think it was yesterday.. don't know why also.. but suddenly i thought of what i wanna be in future.. come to think of it, future isn't too far away anymore.. not like when i was still in kindergarten and the teacher would stand in front of the classroom and ask, "Class, what's ur ambition?" one more year at jc.. plus 2 years in ns.. and phew.. i am an adult already..

being a teacher was my lifelong ambition.. though my life has only lived erm 17 years.. hahaz.. being an interior designer suddenly popped into my mind when i was in pri school one fine day.. think somebody influenced me or something.. i used to have this design of a four storey mansion which i had drawn myself.. but think i had thrown it away a couple of years ago during spring cleaning.. anyhow it was a sucky design if rated professionally larz.. but how much does a pri school kid know anyway..?

wanting to work in a hotel sprung into my mind when i ended secondary education.. my mum ask me go poly.. and i was thinking go poly do what? my IT skills are crap.. i got a d7 for d&t at sec 2 so engineering was out.. and i was like.. maybe i will venture out into the service sector in future so maybe go study that kinda stuff.. but in the end i decided to go jc.. cos poly reminds me of it and engineering stuff which i kinda hate..

a few months ago.. i told my mum maybe i wont be going into uni after my ns.. and my mum was SOOOOO hot! kk dont get the wrong meaning cos she aint got a perfect figure.. hahaz.. but i only said MAYBE ar.. and she was like u dont wanna go uni u go jc for what? and i was like -_- i didnt want to go into uni cos my passion towards learning is on and off one.. when i feel like it, i really can sit down and mug for hours to go.. but if i dont feel like it, one or 2 pages of acceptable work is as far as i can go.. and that time i was thinking of taking over my dad's business after i go out into the working world.. and i was thinking, if got own business be own boss then no need degree le mah.. hehe easy road right? but look at how the business has turned out now...

think i only told two persons about.. me wanting to be a tour guide.. have always thought that it was not a very prospectful or prospectable or whatever it is kinda job.. cos singapore so da*n small.. the tourists not sian i intro a few rounds me myself will also be so da*n sian.. but i have always liked the job.. cos a tour guide gets to meet new friends with every new assignment.. and u get to feel patriotic about ur own country.. but after meeting xiao qiang, suddenly wanna be tour guide again.. see him work like very fun like that.. anyway, he is my first ever tour guide and he has given me such a good impression of a tour guide's job.. but he is guide beijing one leh.. ARGH!!!!

how how how??? only left 3 more years le.. have to make up my mind soon.. if not go ns then every night after lights out stay awake and ponder this kind of question very cham onex.. hahaz like i will be so stupid and stay awake like that.. hahaz..